As a young girl I was determined to do for myself. I always managed to have at least one job but sometimes more. Although I had aspirations of getting an education and going on to be a lawyer I ironically also thought it wise to drop out of high school. I didn’t drop out because it was hard. I had good grades and was in some honors classes as well. I on the other hand wanted fast money and to be out on my own. At the young age of 16 I dropped out and moved out of my mother’s home. By the time I was 17 I was working two jobs and had my own apartment. I tried to get my GED somewhere in the process but was told I was too young to test for it and decided to put it off for later.
By the time I was 18 I was a manager, pregnant, engaged, had my diploma, and in the process of purchasing my first home. I was very determined to find success and be successful. After the first few years of a turbulent relationship and another difficult pregnancy I was told I needed to slow down. At this point I was 21 and had to make the choice to quit my job in order to save my pregnancy. In doing so I made the decision to also sell my house because without my income I couldn’t afford to keep it.
This was a very difficult time for me. Going from a steady income, my own 4-bedroom house, 2 cars, cell phones, credit cards, and all the other adult responsibilities we impose on ourselves to nothing was a very hard transition. Having to depend on my family once again (because my now ex-husband couldn’t provide for us) hurt my pride. Although it was for only a two month period I went from having a lot to only having my children and the clothes on my back. I had to think fast as the birth of my next child was approaching fast. While pregnant and still unemployed I managed to get my family an apartment in a not so fabulous neighborhood. I also made arrangements to return to work when the baby was one day shy of four weeks old.
In the following year I was able to enroll in college and continue working but after two more years of nonsense my two young daughters and I moved out taking only what we needed. Although it has been a rough road we’ve managed to keep a roof over our heads, clothes on our back, and food in our stomachs.
In the process of going it alone I met a wonderful man and I now have not two but five daughters. It hasn’t always been easy but it has been well worth the effort. He was able to obtain a college degree first and now I am in the process of pursuing my second degree. I find myself again unemployed again by choice but this time because of my decision to attend an accelerated nursing program. Being unemployed and having five children has not always been a comfortable feeling for me but as determined as I am to become an RN is as determined as he is to push me along while continuing to happily support his family.
Although I’m again on the road from the bottom to the top I know I have no where to go but up. I am happier now than I’ve ever been and I know that while the road to true success, both personally and financially, hasn’t been easy it isn’t one I’d change. I appreciate everything and everyone I have in my life. I respect and love myself and I’m proud of who I am and what I have. I have a beautiful family, I have a loving partner, and I also have my dignity.